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A Full Moon in Gemini Lineage Reflection

There’s a particular kind of loneliness that comes from being judged before you’re known.

I’m a younger woman in a role that people often assume should come with a specific “look,” a specific age, a specific kind of résumé. On top of that, my lifestyle is intentionally a little closed off from mainstream society. Not because I’m trying to be mysterious—because my nervous system, my spiritual work, my family life, and my integrity require a quieter lane.

So I’m using my blog the way I use ritual: as a respectful bridge. A way for you to feel who I am before we ever meet, before I become your coach, your guide, your reader, your facilitator, or even just your internet person you quietly resonate with.

And the Full Moon in Gemini felt like the perfect night to tell you one of the biggest “why’s” behind me.

Because I carry two extremely different lineages—two climates, two instincts, two homelands—and I’ve spent my life learning how to hold both without forcing either one to shrink.

Gemini as my mirror: two halves that make the whole

Gemini is polarity. Twin flame energy. Double vision. Two hands on the same steering wheel.

Everyone has a maternal line and a paternal line. Whether those stories feel harmonious or complicated isn’t the point. The real question is what Gemini always asks:

What are you going to do with what you’re made of?

Do you keep playing inherited loops on repeat?Do you break the loop?Do you build an entirely new spiral?

Tonight I’m choosing the spiral.

My maternal lineage: Puerto Rico, Taíno roots, Behíque memory (and the layered reality of colonization)

On my mother’s side, I’m Puerto Rican. This lineage holds the Taíno influence that calls to me at a soul-level—especially the archetype of the Behíque, the healer/ritual keeper. It also holds the real, complicated layers of history: Spanish ancestry and the imprint of European invasion and colonization.

I don’t romanticize this. I don’t bypass it. I hold it the way a grown woman holds truth: with reverence and with clarity.

And still—this side of me understands salt air, drumbeat, storm-weather, tropical medicine, and the deep knowing that spirit is not separate from everyday life.

My paternal lineage: Siberian roots, Evenki/Evens land, and the taiga that feels like “home” in my bones

On my father’s side, I have not met him in person. But the truth is: DNA doesn’t require introductions.

When I found out this side of me is largely Russian—Siberian—with roots connected to Evenki/Evens regions, something in my body relaxed. Like a mystery finally got named.

It also explained why boreal land feels so natural to me. Why Minnesota’s cold can feel like a familiar language. Why birch trees read like ancestors. Why winter stillness doesn’t scare me—it steadies me.

Why I love both the Caribbean and the deep freezing north (and why rainforests feel like my true “yes”)

People think it’s strange that I can crave tropical islands and also crave deep northern freeze.

But when you carry two climates inside you, you stop needing to “make sense” to people who only know one.

The Caribbean in me loves warmth, ocean, lush growth, moisture, color, and the living breath of green things.

The taiga in me loves silence, frost, clean air, long horizon, and the kind of spiritual clarity that only comes when the world gets quiet.

And rainforests—rainforests are where all parts of me feel like home at once.Wet. Alive. Ancient. Protective. Loud with spirit. Like the Earth is speaking in full sentences.

Physical Environment: Sea–Island Wisdom vs Taiga–Snow Wisdom (and how they complement each other)

If you want to understand a lineage, look at the land it learned to survive with.

Taíno / Caribbean imprint

• Tropical cycles: heat, rain, storms, sudden change

• Living-with land: growth as medicine, community as survival

• Water intelligence: ocean rhythms, humidity, salt, surrender

Evenki/Evens / Siberian taiga imprint

• Cold cycles: endurance, patience, long winters, short blooms

• Mobility and resilience: adapting fast without losing yourself

• Forest intelligence: birch, conifer, tracking, listening, silence

Together they teach me this:I can be both soft and enduring.I can be both lush and disciplined.I can hold both fire-humid emotion and ice-clean clarity without splitting.

Mental Influence: how these lineages shape my mind

I’ve noticed each lineage offers a different kind of intelligence:

Taíno mindspace (ecology + relationship)

This side of me thinks in systems. It learns through environment. It holds meaning in objects, symbol, story, and community memory. It recognizes that healing is rarely isolated—it’s relational.

Evenki/Evens mindspace (adaptation + clarity)

This side of me thinks in movement. It teaches the mind to read conditions, choose wisely, conserve energy, and stay oriented. It’s a sober kind of intelligence: do what works, stay respectful, don’t waste spirit.

Gemini synthesis: My mind is bilingual. Itspeaks both rainforest and snowfield. (Plus I am actually bilingual)

Language imprint: what these lineages left in the modern world

One of the most beautiful proofs of cultural legacy is language—how a people’s reality becomes a word the world can’t stop using.

Taíno influence (everyday life words)

Taíno imprint shows up in words connected to daily human living—like the language of travel, comfort, plants, and storm-weather. (Even if you’ve never studied Taíno history, you’ve probably spoken its words like hammock, canoe, tobacco to name a few)

Evenki influence (the bridge-between-worlds word)

Evenki influence includes a word the world now uses to describe a spiritual role: “shaman.”

And that matters to me—because it mirrors my life. Taíno in the language of living.Evenki in the language of spirit-walking.

Emotional Intelligence: stories that teach the heart how to behave

Both lineages share something I consider a form of emotional mastery:

Emotion is not “just your feelings.”Emotion is information. Relationship. Consequence. Story.

Shared moral muscles I see in both traditions

• Respect is protection. How you behave toward the unseen and the natural world affects your life.

• Nature is kin. The land is not a backdrop—it’s a living participant.

• Power requires humility. Storms, winter, spirits—none of it exists to be dominated. It exists to be understood.

So when I’m emotional, I don’t pathologize it. I listen. My island lineage teaches me to let emotions move. My taiga lineage teaches me to let emotion clarify.

And Gemini teaches me to let emotion tell the truth without letting it run the whole show.

Spiritual Mastery: Behíque and Shaman, both in my blood

This is the part people often misunderstand about me.

I am not trying to “play dress-up” with culture. I’m not here to perform heritage.

I’m here to be accountable to it.

The Behíque archetype and the Evenki shamanic archetype both point to a similar responsibility: a healer/mediator who serves community, tends relationship between seen and unseen, and carries ethics—not just abilities.

And that is how I use my work:

• I hold space for transformation without coercion.

• I treat spirit as sacred, not entertainment.

• I support clients in building stable, grounded change—not spiritual escapism.

• I respect lineage as a living relationship, not an aesthetic.

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If you’ve ever felt like you don’t “fit” in one box—if you’ve ever carried multiple worlds in one body—please know this:

You’re not broken for being complex. Your are not confusing for being multi-home. You are not “too much” for standing in the middle and choosing to integrate.

That’s not chaos. That’s Gemini mastery.

And it’s part of who I am.